Internship – Week 1

Well, I started my internship this week at ESPN Radio 1000 working on “The Show” on Tuesday and Thursday night.  Actually, the biggest issue this week was weather.  On Tues. it took me 3 hours to drive into Chicago where as normally it would take 1 hour due to the snow storm.  Then on Thursday night, there was another ice/snow storm that came through.  I’m typing this from home on my snow day.  Getting to and from the city has been a chore up to this point.

Working at the station as been a BLAST.  To this point, my responsibilities have been few, but getting to know the guys that work there has been really great.  Jeff, Jeff, Adam and Savodeth (sorry for the brutal spelling dude) have been great at showing me how to do stuff.  As things get further along, I’ll be able to go more hands on.

To this point, I’ve done a small bit of research for the on air guys, printing out box scores, pro bowl rosters, stuff like that.  I also printed out a bunch of emails to pick from for the “winter classic” to be held at Wrigley Field between the Blackhawks and Redwings.

Last night, I cut up an Aaron Rodgers interview for our update guys to use during their updates.  I’ll be doing a lot more of that in weeks to come.  After the first of the year, I’ll also be interning for the talking baseball show on Saturday mornings.

I also had the chance to meet and hang out with Howard Griffith last night.  He is a former NFL fullback and won 2 superbowl rings with the Denver Broncos in the late 90s.  He was co-hosting “The Show” with Carmen DeFalco last night.  A small brush with greatness and the opportunity to name drop for me.

So far so good.  Sleep will be a needed commodity in the coming months, but Joni has been a saint about letting catch a nap prior to classes on Mon., Wed., and Fridays.

Stay tuned!!



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Back…..Back on the Blog

(title reference to a very cool Quincy Jones tune)

Well, I’m back for now.  Just to catch you up, here’s whats new from the last time we spoke……….

June 6 – Last day of school, summer starts!!!!

Julyish – Kids swimming lessons, very fun

August – install new chainlink fence for Champ.  He promptly begins chasing and catching small yard vermin that are now trapped in his yard.  Count to date, 1 squirrel and 4 rabbits.  Side note…… he grabbed the squirrel off of the side of the tree.

August 8 – BBQ & Baptism @ The Orchard.  Our annual celebration.  Over 100 made a public delaration of their faith in Christ.  Absolutely awesome!!!!  Joni was baptized.  I cried like a child.  I was also honored the Mike asked me to spear head the technical side of things.  He asked me to book the band, get sound for them, as well as sound gear for the baptism area at the pool.

End of August – School starts.  :^(

September –  Hardest recruitment in my teaching career.  Can’t go into it other than saying that I thought I had a stroke at one point.  No joke.

September 28 – Emergency hernia surgery.  Yes.  This makes number 4.

September 29 –  Night classes @ The Illinois Center for Broadcasting begins.  Yes, I missed the first 4 classes due to my surgery.  Luckily, Tamesha from class lives down the street, and agreed to let me ride with her until my driving restriction was lifted.  Vicadin you know….

October 20 – back to work.  10lb lifting restriction and no blowing.  Looks like I’m teaching via video.  Thanks to my new used Mac Book Pro and Dennis Ostermann, the video worked out pretty well.  You can check them out at my band blog.

November 13 –  Interview at ESPN for an internship.  They offer it to me on the spot.  I get to work at ESPN for 5 months!!!!!!

Thanksgiving – short vacation of sorts.  Went downstate to visit my family, and stayed in a hotel with the kids.  They had a ball in the pool.  Unfortunately, my belly is still healing, so couldn’t join them, but had fun none the less. 

Yes you read it right.  Belly still healing.  Joni has the priveledge of packing my still open wound with gauze everymorning, rebandaging me, and sending me on my way.  Considering a “wound vac” to speed things up.

December 16 –  First night of internship at ESPN Radio 1000 on “The Show”.  1 hour drive takes 3 hours due to first real snow storm of the year.  More on this in the next post.

Kind of long I know, but it’s been a while.


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Playing with Garbage

Don’t get me wrong, we’re not made of money, but my kids have way more toys than they actually play with in a year.

But yesterday, I’m replacing some screens in our screen door, and went inside for just a minute to put the fish sticks in the oven.  I return back to my driveway to find my 3 children playing with garbage.  They had taken all of the screen scraps, the cardboard tube the screen came on, and anything else they found in the can and had it strewn around my driveway in some sort of fantasy playland.

I swear……

………..we’re just one step away from mowing and fertilizing our lawn with barnyard animals.


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Spoken to…..

Mike emailed me yesterday and asked me if I could crank out a chart for a song our team is doing this weekend a The Orchard.

I love transcribing and making chord charts, so a request like this generally a no brainer for me.  The hardest part is generally finding accurate lyrics online so I don’t have to type them in.

This song absolutely rocked my world, both musically and lyrically.  It talks of a mindset that I’ve had and am trying to overcome.

It’s The Only One You’ve Got – 3 Doors Down

Verse 1:How do you know where you’re going
When you don’t know where you’ve been
You hide the shame that you’re not showing
And you won’t let anyone in
A crowded street can be a quiet place
When you’re walking alone
And now you think that you’re the only one

Pre-Chorus:  who doesn’t Have to try
And you won’t have to feel
If you’re afraid to fight
Then i guess you never will

Chorus:  You hide behind your walls of ‘maybe nevers’
Forgetting that there’s something more
Than just knowing better
Your mistakes do not define you now
They tell you who you’re not
You’ve got to live this life you’re given
Like it’s the only one you’ve got

Verse 2:  Memories have left you broken
And the scars have never healed
The emptiness in you is growing
But so little left to fill
You’re scared to look back on the days before
You’re too tired to move on
And now you think that you’re the only one who doesn’t


Chorus 2:

Bridge:  What would it take
To get you to say that i’ll try
And what would you say if
This was the last day of your life

Choruses 3 & 4:

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So you read my last post and get the idea that I might be in some sort of trouble.  Truth be told I’m feeling sorry for myself.  Still hurts, but then it’s all about me.

And then there’s this.

Please forgive my self-centeredness.


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Had a hard conversation last night

Heard some stuff that I didn’t want to hear.  Very painful, but more disappointing.  Held back tears then, and holding them back now as I type.

I’m working on accepting that it’s what God has chosen for me.  I trust the person I talked to, because I’ve never been given a reason not to.

I’m a very lucky man, with a great wife and family, and good friends, yet in this one area of my life, I’ve remained unfulfilled for just over 6 years now. 

Out of obedience to man, I asked for forgiveness (40+ times), received it but really felt no change in me.  I chose to forgive out of obedience to God, and experienced an enormous blessing for it.  I feel justified based on the fruit of my experience, and have felt that I had honestly moved on.

Last night dredged it all up again, to no fault of the person I talked to.  I love them for their honesty and for the courage that it took to tell me the last 10%.

If “it” is MY desire, I pray that it goes away so that it won’t hurt anymore.  Wrong motivation I know.  I should pray that MY desire is replaced with HIS desire, but I’m not there yet.  I pray for and am excited about the other opportunities we discussed.  I pray for them to present themselves and for the courage, energy, and motivation to go after them.

I confess, there’s a part of me that wants to take my toys and go home, but I couldn’t do it 6 years ago when I was justified, so why take the steps backwards as a man of God and do it now.

I feel far from you now God.  I’ve been functioning out of obedience to you for a long time now.  I’ll be punished if I don’t.  Again, I know that’s not from You, just how I’m feeling.

I honestly don’t know what any of this means.   

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Decision Time

Sorry.  It’s been a while since I’ve posted.  No reason really, I just haven’t felt like I have much to say.  Actually, we’ve had a lot of stuff going on with Joni’s health, and she’s done a really good job of posting about it.  Check it out here if you’re interested.

We do however have some decisions to make in the coming weeks, and if you’re so inclined, feel free to check in.

I’m registered to start taking classes this fall at the Illinois Center for Broadcasting.  I’ve always been super interested in T.V. and Radio, specifically radio.  Joni and I decided that it would be cool for me to take some night classes to learn some more about the business and how it all works.  In a 10 month period of time, they teach you everything from Sports play by play, to behind the scenes video editing and production, to voice overs.  Pretty exciting stuff.  A potential new career in something that seems really fun and outside of anything I’ve ever done.  I believe I’d get to mesh my love of sports, radio, creativity, and my dumb voices into a career.

It also means that I’ll be out of commission for any sort of church service for almost 10 months.  That actually all depends on what night classes meet, and will they conflict with rehearsals at The Orchard.  It also not realistic that I’d get a job right out of the box that would support my family.  Chances are, I’d be doing part-time radio/tv for a while until I could build up enough clout and experience to go full time.  Hard work and scary.

Teaching didn’t seem to suck as much this year, which is something new.  I worked some new things into my r  o  u  t  i  n  e  that kept me generally interested in going to work each day.  If I choose the safe path, I can take more teaching classes, move over a few more lanes on the salary schedule, make a little more money each year, and support my family with a stable job, and keep my 15 weeks of vacation.  Not much fun, but very safe, stable and comfortable.

Either option will cost money.  We’ll probably do student loans for the Radio stuff, and probably just do credit cards for the teaching stuff.  We’ve got pretty good credit right now.

The other thing bouncing around in my head is my music ministry.  I love the arts ministry that Mike is leading at The Orchard, and being a part of it.  As leaders, I would follow Scott and Chris anywhere.  But to this point, I feel that my music ministry has stagnated.  Notice that I said “MY” music ministry.  Is it perhaps that I’m not listening for what God has in store for me and following my own wants?  Quite possible, but it goes against all of the other confirmation that I’ve felt over the past few years.  At this point, I’ll continue to remain patient, and keep praying for opportunities to present themselves.

Whatever we decide will be a step of faith that will include varying amounts of fear and varying amounts of comfort for my family.

Thoughts?  Advice?  Direction?  Discernment?


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