Man do I need help!!! Since I have turned over a new “leaf”, and have made the commitment to be with God on a daily basis, I have experienced some things that I wasn’t expecting.
As far as my eating goes, I have had the GREAT experience of sensing God’s presence to make the “good” choice. It’s almost as if He’s right there saying, “I love you too much, for you to treat yourself this way”. A very cool experience. That’s not to say that there haven’t been some “indulgences”, but there has been progress in the last week, in reference to the amount of food that I’ve been eating. PRAISE GOD!!!
I’m being tested in other areas of weakness, specifically in the financial arena. Truthfully, it’s just that I’m tired of having no financial freedom. I’m tired of having to watch every dollar. I’m tired of having to deny my family and myself some conveniences and comforts that I see other friends having. I’m tired of it!! When is it going to end.
Father, I am so thankful for what you have provided, but for whatever reason, I’m not content with it. I want financial freedom. I want to be able to join the health club. I want to be able to buy some new furniture. We need to get our vehicles repaired. I want a new guitar. I don’t believe that there is anything wrong with these things Father, but You know my heart. Please reveal to me where I’ve gone wrong. Help me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I pray for a financial miracle Father. I pray that I won’t need a second job. I pray that Joni won’t have to get a job. I pray for contentment, peace, and understanding. Please forgive me for whatever I might have done, but don’t understand. Please don’t hide yourself from me Father, in this area. I need Your help. Thank You again for Your grace, mercy, and provision. Please help me to feel and understand them. In Your name. Amen.